update

First, GOOD news……we found out on Friday that I am BRCA negative! Long story short, but this means that my cancer is not known to be from a genetic mutation and therefore not hereditary. What this means for me: the doctors won’t be coming after my ovaries when all this is over and we don’t need to worry about my children (and all other blood family relatives). Collective sigh of relief…..

I got super sick this week and have spent the rest of the week building up my strength and trying to gear up for my next infusion coming up on Tuesday. Day 8 after infusion I became violently ill and spent the night on the bathroom floor. My docs are puzzled as to what happened. Seems a bit late for a chemo response. Could have caught a virus or bacteria from leftovers, we will probably never know. With white counts as low as mine (close to zero) things that would cause no one else to get sick, can make me sick. Oh lucky me (insert eye roll). Someone please send Ebola suit, there have got to be some left on eBay from the outbreaks of 2014 out there!

I officially “Britney’d it” last Friday. For all you couples out there struggling, I highly recommend couples head shaving. Much cheaper than counseling too. We spent the evening in our bathroom where both our boys were born, listening to Hollis’s birth playlist with the electric clippers. The experience was actually incredibly empowering! Garrett said to me before we went to sleep that night “you really haven’t lived until you’ve shaved your wife’s head.” I agree babe, I agree. Glad to have this hurdle over. And one cancer silver lining, which I’m always looking for: no leg or armpit shaving! Be jelly gals, very jelly.

We are having a quiet, cold and rainy, one kid weekend over here. Hope you all are snuggling too!

XOXO,

e

the mohawk i never knew i always wanted

27 Comments

  1. Kelly Alagna
    January 19, 2017

    Beautiful!!

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  2. Meg troncale
    January 17, 2017

    You are beautiful, Erin!

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  3. Leigh Ann
    January 16, 2017

    Texas Roller Derby chic in the making! You are amazing at how you are taking this journey and owning it. Love how you and Garrett took the power of this moment and created yet another bond in our marriage. Beautiful!

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  4. Robina
    January 16, 2017

    Strongest chica I’ve ever known. Your new look goes with your attitude: badass and gorgeous.

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  5. Jossie
    January 16, 2017

    You’re so pretty <3

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  6. Angela Doran
    January 16, 2017

    OF COURSE you look stunningly gorgeous with no hair!!!! Good gravy, woman. YOU ARE AMAZING. I think of you often. I’ve yet to get a manicure (shit’s been crazy) but when i do–you can bet I’ll be saving a sparkly just for you. xo

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  7. RoseSteve
    January 16, 2017

    You are so gorgeous!! The Mohawk I never knew I wanted!! ? Handling each day with your strong nature to push through this Erin! Glad you had a negative result & so proud of you & proud of Garett for being exactly what he needs to be!! We are thinking of you every day! Love to you to the moon & back~

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  8. Becky Schwartze
    January 15, 2017

    Praise God you are BRCA negative!!!! I’m so happy for the blessings you are finding hidden in the difficulty. You are so strong!!!! Your bravery and courage are inspiring!!! Your mowhawk looked awesome!!! You totally pulled it off!!! You actually look sooo beautiful with your head shaved. It draws attention to your beautiful eyes, cheek bones, and your smile. Cancer has not dulled your sparkle one bit!!! You are shining more brightly than ever!!! Keep fighting the good fight and keep on letting your light shine for all the world to see!!!

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  9. Jeniece Gibbs Pritchett
    January 15, 2017

    Such such such GREAT news on the BRCA test!! Throwing up all the praises on that one. And you, my love, are SIMPLY stunning! Your positivity in the absolute worst of situations is beyond inspiring. Celebrating with you on the good days and fighting with you on the hard days. May there be more good than hard. LOVE you!

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  10. Erinn Cain
    January 15, 2017

    You my friend is what life is supposed to be all about… Rolling with the punches… Life without fear… Living without looking back… Fighting no matter how scary it might be! I already looked up to you before all this happened… Now you will be my life motto.. Never give up even when life gets rough! Thank you for your inspiration… Honesty and grit! I love you so much and am forever grateful for our friendship!??

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  11. Leslie
    January 14, 2017

    You are one strong gorgeous woman.

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  12. kirsten
    January 14, 2017

    I’m sorry you’ve felt so awful. //
    you look badass.
    heart heart heart you.

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  13. Renee Thompson
    January 14, 2017

    You’re rockin’ the GI Jane look! You are so inspiring and beautiful inside and out! I continue to pray for you and all your family. Love you, Renee

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  14. Vickie Sadler
    January 14, 2017

    You are such an inspiration!! Love your attitude and positive energy! You continue to be in our thoughts and prayers. You look gorgeous, by the way!! Stay strong!! 🙂

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  15. Peggy
    January 14, 2017

    BRCA negative! What happy happy news!
    I love you so much. You and Garrett together are just the best!

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  16. Ann Sager Pfluger
    January 14, 2017

    Look how cute you look! I thought that bathroom (and body) was epic for bringing to the world an 11lb baby… who knew you could top it! Hugs Erin ??

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  17. Chelsea Kendrick
    January 14, 2017

    Well…you are just AMAZING in every way!! So brave, strong, empowering & inspiring! You are so loved & prayed for. I hope you can feel it. You’re really doing something here. Kicking cancer to the fucking curb & starting a movement with a powerful tribe. Keep it UP, sister. Love to YOU and your family.

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  18. Joanna
    January 14, 2017

    Beautiful, Erin! You are my hero and a hero to sooo many! And that bathroom is sacred space! My goodness, the amazing magic that has happened within its four walls – if you ever move you have to figure out how to take it with you!

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  19. Melissa Reed
    January 14, 2017

    You are so beautiful!!!!!! The shaved head brings out your gorgeous smile and eyes!!!!! Sending you lots of love and big hugs!!!!! ❤️❤️

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  20. Barbara O'Brien
    January 14, 2017

    You look bald look gorgeous and sexy? Sending a big hug?

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    1. Barb;)
      January 14, 2017

      *make:)

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  21. Lindsey
    January 14, 2017

    OMG! You are gorgeous!! Move over Sinead O’Connor!!

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  22. Scott granowski
    January 14, 2017

    Wow. Beautiful progress.

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  23. Julie and Scott
    January 14, 2017

    You are beautiful!!!

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  24. Adelle Brownlee Brewer
    January 14, 2017

    Woman Rockstar Warrior❣
    I love you Erin❣

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  25. Joanie Brooks
    January 14, 2017

    You are amazing and inspiring. AND beautiful. Sending you love!

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  26. Gina Giordano
    January 14, 2017

    You’re a beautiful fucking rockstar!!! I am a bucket of tears over here. Your ability to see the beauty and love in life is so inspiring! And I love that the head shaving took place where your boys were born. Magic! Hugs to you!

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